families can be together forever

I have always thought of myself as one who lives on the dangerous side. In high school im sure you could use the word reckless. I can't say the same as of now.

My fear as a mother is overwhelming. The moment I step into a vehicle, walk in the dark, am approached by a stranger. . I am constantly plagued by the fear of not being able to see my babies grow.

 Something happening to me.

Leaving them to wonder who their mother was. 

I try and make it a joke.

For some reason that is the only way I can cope with the thought.

The thought of someone else raising my babies.

When I say I make it a joke, I mean that I tell Jayson

to re-marry someone who is not very cute.

(not like that even matters)

He always tells me he would never re-marry.

He would raise our babies alone.

I can't stand the thought of that either.

 

Why would someone worry about something like this?

Am I completely weird?

The fact is I love my babies so much it hurts. 

and I feel my husband truly is my soul mate. 

I want to be there for everything.

Live life as long as I possibly can.

I want to see my babies childrens children have kids.

and I want to see those kids graduate. 

I want to love Jayson tell were all wrinkly.
 The thought of us growing old together warms my soul.
 

But then the intense fear comes in.

I feel like I have to think about it.

 I have to talk about it.

Would someone love my family as much as I do.

When they rocked my babies would they look into their sweet innocent eyes and tear up at the site of their perfection.

Be slow to anger and quick to forgive with my soul mate.

A part of me feels paranoid.

but the truth is that life is so fragile.

I have no idea when my days will come to an end.

I just have to let my faith overcome my fear.

I have faith that if I live righteously

that no matter how long or short my time here on earth is

that my family is sealed to me for time and all eternity.

I know families can be together forever.

Its just letting my faith overcome the fear. 

 

 Families can be together forever
Through Heavenly Father’s plan.
I always want to be with my own family,
And the Lord has shown me how I can. 

Happy heart day

I woke up this morning to a wonderful breakfast and some really sweet notes...One from my lover and one scribble from my sweet lil man. 
Then the kids got their Valentines from mom and dad.  Robot post here

The kiddos with their best friends. I think Maddox and Lincoln will fight over Ember some day.

Sibling love right here.

The lover is taking me out on a hot date tonight!!! Can't wait! :) 
Im sure ill take lots of pictures of that too:)

Wordless Wednesday

linkin with The Paper Mama, Parenting by Dummies, Project Alicia, Jenni from the Blog, and Live and Love Outloud




....ALMOST



Be happy today
Chose to be happy and to see beauty
In a Hug or a Kiss
a simple look or touch

Laugh more today
and smile at a stranger. 
Tell your family you love them 

Make today a good day
XOXO 

 

Tell me Tuesday! LINK UP

Welcome my dears. I hope you are all doing fantastic!

as always I want to feature some of my favorite 

links for last week!!! 

ALSO if you would like to be a guest host please contact me at

ashleywhetman@hotmail.com

 Lovely little printable!

Cupcake Diaries

 11 Stupid things men say to women.

SOOO FUNNY

Life Unexpected 

 AHhh these are awesome!!
You have to read fine print

A fish who likes flowers

Recipe fail...so great!! 

Boots by the backdoor

 If you were featured and would like a button
they are on the sidebar!!

Make sure to check out 
Lil Mrs. Tori
to see if you were featured there!

MMM-gallon challenge

 o water....how I love you.   

 For one of my new year resolutions I decided to join the gallon challenge. 

This means I have to down a whole gallon in one day. 

I thought this was going to be SO HARD. 

but it is actually very easy.

 I have seen a lot of benefits so far.

 1. More energy

2. Drinking little to no diet coke ( if you know me you know this is a miracle)

3. snacking less often

4. making healthier meals

A few hard things.

1. I feel like I go potty every thirty minutes...

2. When traveling its not the easiest to pack around

3. Being consistent

I have good days and bad. Some days I drink it all and fill more up. Others I get to about the 6 o'clock line and realize its time for bed. I also don't do well when I am traveling or on vacation (yes I consider going to my parents for the weekend vacation). The days I do well and drink my whole gallon are always better days. I feel healthier happier and have way more energy! I love it so much I also got Jayson doing it now and he loves it!! 

 

Does anybody want to see this come back as a link up??