Jayson and I were asked to speak in the Singles Stake Conference. I thought I would share my talk on here for family to have the opportunity to read, to share my beliefs with you, and to have in the future to look back to.
Enjoy.
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I want to start off by telling you a little bit about
mine and Jayson’s extremely cheesy love story.
It all started four years ago.
One summer day in Logandale I was driving into work in my
little white ford pick-up. The sun was shining down on me while I was driving
my half hour commute to the salon. The windows down, music on and life was
good. Suddenly one glance down I noticed my poor little truck was
smoking. In an immediate state of panic I pulled over and called my older
brother to come save me. He came, towed my truck and got me to work on time.
When looking into repairing that little white truck I soon found it would
cost more to fix the engine than the truck was actually worth. With the extra
money I had saved up and the steady income I made the decision to buy a new
car. My mother and father were right there at my side aiding me in my first big
financial commitment. When I went in to buy my car I came out not knowing I was
being led to my future husband. While there, my mother and Jayson’s dad who was
selling me the car had schemed up a blind date for us. When my mother told me
what she had been up to I was not exactly excited. The last thing I wanted was
to go on a date that was set up by parents. However I knew I wasn’t having much
luck finding the right guy myself, so I thought maybe my mom could do a little
better. Jayson had finally called me and asked me out, while hesitating I had actually
told him I was busy that weekend. Being persistent he tried for the following
weekend. I decided one date would be alright.
That first date with Jayson we decided to meet in
St. George as it was in the middle of our homes. We met in the Old Navy parking
lot and as soon as he stepped out of his car I thought well at least he was studly and
had extremely nice shoulder muscles. After the date was over I came
to the conclusion he was the cutest sweetest man out there. On our second date
we went out for ice cream at Cold Stone. As we sat and talked I couldn’t help
but wonder if this was the man I could spend the rest of my life with.
All of the sudden I look around and the entire strip mall was empty,
lights were off, shops were closed, tables clean and there was nobody in sight.
I looked at my phone and didn’t believe it when I saw it was 3 in the morning.
We had sat and talked for hours and I felt as if I could have stayed hours
longer. I drove home that night unable to stop smiling. The following day my cheek
muscles throbbed in smile pain.
It wasn’t tell after our third date, I was opening
my door to get in my new car when Jayson shuts it, looks me in the eye and asks
if he could kiss me. My knees buckled at the cuteness in the question and the
shake in his voice. Needless to say our first kiss was perfect. We
dated a few more weeks when we drove into St George again….I knew I needed to
tell him that I was not dating any other boys and didn’t want him to be dating
any other girls. I wanted to make it official that he was my boyfriend. We
walked around the temple that night and then over to the park. It was getting
late, the sun was going down and the peace I felt holding his hand was unlike
anything I had imagined. We stood to give each other a hug. When Jayson places
his hands on my neck, looks into my eyes and just kinda whispers “I think
we should get married”. The most amazing feeling came over me, I closed my eyes
and just said “me too” at that moment I had never felt the spirit so strong. A
few tears rolled down my face as the thought sank into my chest. I was so
anxious to tell this man not to be dating any other girls because I wanted him
all to myself and when I left that night I knew that was exactly what I was
going to have for eternity.
I was totally in love with this man, I could see his
testimony shinning out of him and saw the Joy he found in his priesthood. I
knew that someday I would be proud to have my sons look up to him as a father,
and my daughters to desire a companion with the same characteristics.
Jayson is not perfect, but he is the man that
I love. The man that takes care of me and our children, the man I truly am sad
to see walk out our door each day and excited to see walk in each night.
When preparing for this talk I was overwhelmed by
the talks and articles I could use and reference. However one more recent talk
you all may remember well was
by Elder D. Todd Christofferson “Brethern, We
have work to do”
In this talk he says "Brethren, We must be the men that women can trust,
that children can trust, and that God can trust."
I think this is the type of man that girls, righteous,
beautiful daughters of heavenly father are not only looking for, but deserve.
In that same talk he states a few statistics on women
being higher educated and more successful. Also using the example that in too
many Hollywood films, TV, and even commercial adds that men are portrayed as
incompetent, or self-absorbed.
It can not be this was. Priesthood holders have the
essential role to play in society, at home and in the church. I could not
agree more.
In D&C section 121 it says
“The rights of the priesthood are inseparably connected
with the powers of heaven and the powers of heaven cannot be controlled nor
handled only upon the principles of righteousness”.
I beg all the young men out there as I know your
future wives would beg you to be righteous , worthy priesthood holders and to
recognize the ability you have to bless not only your lives but the lives of
your family.
Women likewise have a responsibility to prepare to
be righteous, worthy wives and mothers.
Spencer W. Kimball said
“No greater recognition can come to you in this world
than to be known as a woman of God. No greater status can be conferred upon you
than being a daughter of God who experiences true sisterhood, wife hood, and
motherhood”
It has been said that women of the church need to be
distinct and different from the women of the world. I pondered on some examples
to share on how I prepared myself for the role of a wife and mother.
Nothing coming to my mind other than nothing could have possibly prepared
me for this. It is the hardest, easiest, saddest, happiest, most confusing,
rewarding thing I have ever entered into.
I read the talk by Jeffery R. Holland called “Because
she is a mother” and quickly related to the way he described the roles of a
young wife and mother. He said “The
young years of marriage often may still be in school or in those earliest
and leanest stages of developing the husband’s bread-winning capacities.
Finances fluctuate daily between low and nonexistent. The apartment is usually
decorated in one of two smart designs—Deseret Industries or early Mother
Hubbard. The car, if there is one, runs on smooth tires and an empty tank. But
with night feedings and night teethings, often the greatest challenge of all
for a young mother is simply fatigue. Through these years, mothers go longer on
less sleep and give more to others with less personal renewal for themselves
than any other group I know at any other time in life. It is not surprising
when the shadows under their eyes sometimes vaguely resemble the state of Rhode
Island.”
I had an experience a few weeks ago where Jayson was gone
to meetings, Ty was screaming. Demanding my complete attention. He had a poopy
bum and has spilled cereal all over the floor. Ember was fussing. Hungry,
tired, mad, wanted to be picked up...I was not sure. I looked around and the
house was a mess. Dishes in the sink and gold fish crumbs pressed into the
carpet. Spit up in my hair and chocolate finger prints on my white shirt. In a
moment of weakness. My knees gave out and I collapse to the floor. I sat there
and start to bawl. I pressed my hands over my face and wonder why God ever
trusted me with his sweet spirits. I felt as if I was a complete failure as a
wife and mother. Tears continued to run down my face for a few minutes.
Thoughts of failure and disappointment overwhelm me. It was not suppose to be
this hard. I love my kids. More than I could have ever imagined. So why was I
failing? Why couldn't I make it through this day or even just this moment. I
continued sitting there. My thoughts consuming me and the world becoming fuzzy.
Now with my thoughts so powerful the sound of screaming children became faint
background noise. I wish there was an answer. I wish somehow my children
could be happy every moment. I feel that is what they deserve. but that
is not real life. I sat there and suddenly with out thinking I just began to
pray. I prayed not to have life be perfect. but just for strength. Strength to
get up from the floor and be able to take care of those children I love so
dearly. I prayed that they could know my love for them and that I was
trying the best I could. In that moment I knew I needed the lords help. I knew
I could call upon him to help me in the eternal role of motherhood.
We can’t be afraid to ask for help, especially when it is
from Christ.
But also from our husbands or wives. You bet that when
Jayson came in that night I shared with him my struggles. I shared with him how
I felt I was failing him as a wife and our children as a mother. He was the
person I want to bury my face into his arm and cry.
Often times he has had to stroke my hair, kiss my cheeks
and reassure me that I am doing a good job. I only hope that I can assure him
of his accomplishments as he does for me. It is truly a partnership, one
that is necessary for exaltation. A spouse is the only person other than
the Lord whom we have been commanded to love with all our heart.
In D&C 42:22
it says Thou shalt
love thy wife with all thy heart, and shalt cleave unto her and none else.
The phrase “none
else” teaches that no person, activity, or possession should ever take
precedence over the marriage relationship.
Russell M. Nelson said
Marriage is the foundry for social order, the
fountain of virtue, and the foundation for eternal exaltation. Marriage has
been divinely designated as an eternal and everlasting covenant. Marriage is
sanctified when it is cherished and honored in holiness. That union is not
merely between husband and wife; it embraces a partnership with God.”
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